"Before I was a Mom, I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts. I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom, I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache, the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom."
Unknown Author

I just wanted to share this with you as I read another blog this morning. I find myself at times wondering if I am making a difference, if I am being the best mom I know how, if I am molding and shaping as He calls me to, if I am loving enough, if I am saying yes enough, if I am hugging enough, praising enough...all I can do is pray and beg God for enough.